It has been 2 months since I have been working out. Wow, it only seems like yesterday I was walking in there for my knee and now I am working out 4 days a week! I am really thinking about going back to 3 days a week. I feel its really taking a toll on me. I am always tired and not motivate anymore. I am not giving up but something has to give. What do you think? I really do a lot when I am working out and I always nervous that I am going to pull or break something. That would truly be really bad.

I have been slacking on my diet as well. It doesn’t help at all. I am being a bad girl! I really need to get back on track and get back to my routine. I was doing so well, and then I guess I got tired and burned out on it. I think I am going tell my trainer I am only coming 3 days a week for now because I am so tired, but yet I can’t sleep at night.

Today is my cousin’s birthday! So we are suppose to be going out to a bar to have a drink and a few shots. I can’t wait to have a drink. I haven’t had a drink in a very long time. I am really trying to watch my diet, so I have been good. Believe it or not alcohol puts on a lot of weight. I like drinking mixed drinks, I hate beer. It would be nice to have a nice drink and just relax, but when I work out next, I am really going to have to be good and work hard so it doesn’t show up at the scale. I have been doing so well, I don’t need 1 drink to mess it up, but yet I deserve a little something for working so hard, don’t I?

I am trying to find something to wear and I can’t. I have a closet full of clothes and yet I can’t find a darn thing to wear tonight. I am so thankful for places like Lane Bryant, Avenue and Fashion Bug to have really nice trendy plus size clothing. I don’t know what I would do without those stores!